Sparta.

Beautiful mess

nirvgen — Tue, 17 Jan 2012 13:11:49 +0000

You’ve got the best of both worlds
You’re the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you’re needy,
Humble but you’re greedy
And based on your body language,
And shoddy cursive I’ve been reading
Your style is quite selective,
Though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
That this is just what happiness is

And what a beautiful mess this is
It’s like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don’t mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
‘Cause here we are, here we are
Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they’re quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There’s no shame in being crazy,
Depending on how you take these
Words I’m paraphrasing this relationship we’re staging

And what a beautiful mess this is
It’s like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And kind and courteous is a life I’ve heard
But it’s nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear
Cause here we are, Here we are
Here we are
We’re still here
What a beautiful mess this is
It’s like taking a guess when the only answer is yes

Through timeless words, and priceless pictures
We’ll fly like birds, not of this earth
And times they turn, and hearts disfigure
But that’s no concern when we’re wounded together
And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts
But it’s nice today, oh the wait was so worth it.

Whatever you do. Don’t let go.

nirvgen — Sat, 14 Jan 2012 12:27:37 +0000

Don’t let go of who you are. Let go and let God. He brings you to places and new heights that you never imagine.

And everything will fall into place. Don’t let go of him but let him. Listen. Hear carefully. At the quietest moments where you are the most venerable. Where you let your guard down, that where you open your ears and know he is there, beside you, guiding you and he never let go.

Life’s great. I love it.

Up With The Birds

nirvgen — Sat, 14 Jan 2012 12:09:22 +0000

The birds they sang, break of day
Start again I hear them say
It’s so hard to just walk away

The birds they sang, all a choir
Start again, a little higher
It’s a spark in a sea of grey

The sky is blue, dream that lie til it’s true
Then taking back the punch I threw
My arms turn wings oh those clumsy things
Send me up to that wonderful world
And then I’m up with the birds

Send me up to that wonderful world
And then I’m up with the birds

Might have to go where they don’t know my name
Float all over the world just to see her again
But I won’t show or feel any pain
Even though all my armour might rust in the rain
A simple plot, but I know one day
Good things are coming our way
Oh yeah

Coldplay – Us Against The World Lyrics

nirvgen — Sun, 08 Jan 2012 06:51:18 +0000

Oh morning come bursting, the clouds, Amen.
Lift off this blindfold, let me see again
And bring back the water, let your ships roll in.
In my heart she left a hole

The tightrope that I’m walking just sways and ties
The devil as he’s talking with those angel’s eyes
And I just want to be there when the lightning strikes
And the saints go marching in

And sing slow-ow-ow-ow it down

Through chaos as it swirls
It’s us against the world

Like a river to a raindrop, I lost a friend
My drunken as a Daniel in a lion’s den

And tonight I know it all has to begin again
So whatever you do, don’t let go

And if we could float away
Fly up to the surface and just start again
And lift off before trouble
Just erodes us in the rain (x3)

Sing slow-ow-ow-ow it down
Oh Slow-ow-ow-ow it down

Through chaos as it swirls
It’s just us against the world
Through chaos as it swirls
It’s us against the world

說謊

nirvgen — Mon, 28 Nov 2011 07:33:45 +0000

是有過幾個不錯對象說起來並不寂寞孤單
可能我浪蕩讓人家不安才會結果都陣亡

我沒有什麼陰影魔障妳千萬不要放在心上
我又不脆弱何況那算什麼傷
反正愛情不就都這樣

我沒有說謊我何必說謊
妳懂我的我對妳從來就不會假裝
我哪有說謊
請別以為妳有多難忘笑是真的不是我逞強

我好久沒來這間餐廳沒想到已經換了裝潢
角落那窗口聞得到玫瑰花香
被妳一說是有些印象
轉載來自

我沒有說謊我何必說謊
妳知道的我缺點之一就是很健忘
我哪有說謊
是很感謝今晚的相伴但我竟然有些不習慣

我沒有說謊我何必說謊
愛一個人沒愛到難道就會怎麼樣
別說我說謊
人生已經如此的艱難有些事情就不要拆穿

我沒有說謊是愛情說謊
它帶妳來騙我說渴望的有可能有希望
我沒有說謊祝妳做個幸福的新娘
我的心事請妳就遺忘

First batch of visitor into Dubai.

nirvgen — Tue, 08 Nov 2011 08:21:41 +0000

It’s was great! Besides me fainting while quad biking…

I really got quite paranoid and feel quite light headed recently. Maybe age is catching up or God is preventing some disaster from happening. Anyway, I still Thank God that I’m still breathing. By God’s grace, my brains are safe.

I have two really cool and sweet Bday presents from Dex, Ade and Kim. I totally digged it.
I’m climbing out of the shit pit and waking up looking at the scenarios clearer and clearer each day.

Most of the time, I chose to face the situations and let the pain sinks in. I stared hard at it and let the full blown pain hit me. I chose not to avoid the truth and rather let it hurt me really hard. Nothing kills me, and that makes me alot stronger. I don’t like to be left in the dark or lie to. That’s the worst. Do ever lie to me. I rather hear the truth and let all horrible emotions run through me, until it disperse as time passes.

The worst thing is, I hate the way you lie, because you think i’m an idiot. I love you, but that doesn’t mean I’m a fool. Love compromises everything, thats why I deal with who you are and accept it. Now, you took my heart and decided to trash it. Things will never ever be the same. Be kind to me atleast. For old time sake atleast? For the fact that, I really gave you my best? No, you still bring me on a joy ride.

I don’t hate you. We will see where/how it ends. I will always be more superior then anyone of those you decided to “hang around”. I’m proud that way and I will not compare myself with anyone of them. I know where I stand.

Let’s not look back at what we could have prevented or could have done. Let’s all look forward. Life is short. Peace to you Charlene. I still can’t believe what happened. But all things happens for a reason. I know you are with the Father now. Up there, looking down at us. You chill out there… and see you soon. xoxo.

Let’s take one year at one time. 2011, let’s look forward to 2012. It’s going to fly. Amen.

I will rise and not fall.

nirvgen — Sun, 30 Oct 2011 13:26:03 +0000

Skies are crying I am watching Catching teardrops in my hands Only silence as it’s ending, like we never had a chance Do you have to, make me feel like there is nothing left of me?
[Chorus]You can take everything I have You can break everything I am Like I’m made of glass Like I’m made of paper Go on and try to tear me down I will be rising from the ground Like a skyscraper! Like a skyscraper!
As the smoke clears I awaken, and untangle you from me Would it make you, feel better to watch me while I bleed? All my windows, still are broken But I’m standing on my feet
[Chorus]You can take everything I have You can break everything I am Like I’m made of glass [ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/skyscraper-lyrics-demi-lovato.html ] Like I’m made of paper Go on and try to tear me down I will be rising from the ground Like a skyscraper! Like a skyscraper!
[Bridge]Go run, run, run I’m gonna stay right here Watch you disappear, yeah Go run, run, run Yeah it’s a long way down But I am closer to the clouds up here
You can take everything I have You can break everything I am Like i’m made of glass Like i’m made of paper, Ohhh woaah Go on and try to tear me down I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper! Like a skyscraper!
Like a skyscraper! Like a skyscraper!

I’m not you. I don’t know what is heartless.

nirvgen — Sat, 29 Oct 2011 13:30:42 +0000

And I’m happier this way.

There are times where it hurt just alittle. But it just mind over feelings.

nirvgen — Sat, 29 Oct 2011 13:16:20 +0000

Somedays I feel like throwing up. But the times gets lesser and lesser when the minds tells you to be a sparta.

Sometimes My hearts beats really fast and hurts. But the pain get lesser and lesser when the minds tell it’s silly.

But when the minds starts to wonder away, thats where they call it “mind fuck”.

I just want to be happy. And I will be.

When you think you are strong, someone is stronger.

nirvgen — Wed, 26 Oct 2011 08:15:17 +0000

Courage is a fine word